So, I’ve been having heart trouble – which for me means that I haven’t spent enough time in the Otherworlds. That ‘eating‘ away at my being that leaves me damn near crippled. Joy. I have clinical ‘arrhythmia,’ which is for me when my heart ‘forgets‘ to beat. It hurts, it’s debilitating, and medical professionals won’t help me until I have a fucking heart-attack. To them, I think they’re assholes.
So, today I stayed home, I was too weak for industrial work, and needed rest.
I went to the Otherworlds, just to the edge, and just ‘cuz.’ I was weak, but needed to go.
I met my other two familiars. I knew they were coming, I was not expecting what I got. I was there, just soaking in the atmosphere like a dehydrated person on an open IV, and I saw him. A spider, about the size of a blue-heeler… COMING RIGHT AT ME.
I screamed. I admit it.
I ran. Yep, I admit that too.
He followed. I was pinned in a three-walled box canyon setting, panting and feeling my heart NOT being in a good place… He spoke to me.
“Uh… I’m supposed to introduce myself.”
I screamed again. If you think this is shit – FUCK YOU. Spiders are my phobia.
It was a jumping spider, and he’s been trying to WEEKS to get in touch with me. I’ve killed about 20 of them – all looking identical. Funny, no?
This spider has got to be the most mellow-yellow creature I’ve ever met. I spoke to him, and after a bit I very nervously listened. I have a new familiar. A spider. It’s time to stop being afraid apparently, to look, listen, and feel the vibes of the webs. This…. Ought to be interesting. And, I should get more grey hair. Not like I don’t have enough as is!
After, I was in a lake, trying to speak to the fish. I know, I know. I almost had one, until a weird bird swam up to me. It was black, with grey and white feathers on it’s main body. It had a white stripe around it’s neck, and a strange call that sounded more like laughter than anything else. Yep, a LOON.
It got the fish for me so easily that it made me feel like a Neanderthal making fire. It swam off laughing.
So, this is new. I am not sure what to make of this, and… With my heart in the shape it’s in right now, I need a rest and a time for reflection. I would love insights, hints, tips, etc.
I came back to my own in a sorry state. My heart is not strong right now, but after the trip I have felt much better. Does this happen for other people?