The more I learn, the more I feel like a novice. I wonder sometimes ‘Am I learning anything?’ Sometimes it feels more like I’m a hamster on a wheel, than a progression.
In the end, I’m back with the original three I wanted to be in the first place. It’s not a silent time, just a time I feel I’m turning in circles and not going anywhere.
Problem is, I’m the only pagan for miles. There is a nearby pagan but she’s moving. So, I’m on my own. Now what? Who do I ask if I have questions and concerns as I learn? A human perspective to contemplate as I listen to my Gods… Makes the wind a bit more bitter even in the summer.
So tonight’s blog is spent wondering, and thinking. I have so many questions, and if you’ve read my blog I’m still so raw in form it isn’t freakin’ funny. There is so much fleshing out to be had.. But where to start? Who to ask? What all needs to be done?